More Practice With Bloging

Oh no!
Do you know? My English is not good enough. That is one of problems that I have. Especially for my study in school. Because my school is an international senior high school, so the student must have good speak in English. And how about me? Yeah I think I don't speak English smoothly. If my teacher ask to me in English, so I have to answer with English too, but I don't know why, my mouth was so difficult to open. Whereas I had got the answer in my head, but It is too difficult to said.

Now I'm going to the second grade in senior high school. Moreover I'm going to the science class. And all of the science lesson will use English. Yes or no, I have to raise my English speaking. I have a lot of friend that have good speaking in English. Sometime I feel jealous with them. But how? I don't take an English course. So my English is not better than my friends.

Did I give up? Yes, I have thought like that. But I really said thanks to my friend that gave me the spirit. She is also the same as me; have not well enough in speaking English. So we make a deal. We will use English for our conversation. At the first time, of course it is so funny. We just keep silent. Confused what will be discussed. And at the moment even we laugh each other.

Step by step, we start to make conversation. Whatever. We speak English each other. Although there were some mistakes, but we ignored it. Just for to be nerve to speak English. We talked about our teacher that we dislike, about the tasks, about our friends and about our favorite singer, Christian Bautista etc.

I know that English is an important language, but however I don't like it. May be I have got trauma with English. I'm sorry can not share it, but that moments really make me uncomfortable and depressed. So, I prefer Italiano.

I have got dream, one day I can go to Italy and learn the language there. That is my biggest dream! And I hope it isn't just a dream. I love Italy! Of course after Indonesia. lol xD. Oh gosh! Maybe I too nerve to dream.

It is my second posting which use English. Why? Whereas last, I say dislike with English. Yes Of course because my biggest dream! xD I realize, how I can learn Italian if my English is not good? How I can go to Italy if I can not speak English? Oh gosh!

Because that, I write this. Maybe I make a lot of mistakes. But what can I do? Because I’m an Indonesian that don't have English proficiency naturally. Because I don't take any English course. And because my friend doesn't with me again, so I just can more practice my English with writing. From this moment, I start to writing with English. Yeah good luck for me!! xD